i cannot lose the feeling that i am searching for something that i have never been able to find

I could relate to your entire post, but this one resonated with me the most. What scares me is that I feel as if I will never find it either.
Sid | Homepage | 07.12.09 - 3:41 pm | #

Hi Anna,
I felt just like you for a long time and I still do sometimes. I see your tears streaming as you blog, and you're holding back from pounding the keyboard.

I figured out that the way I think about almost everything is wrong. And I'm starting to really listen to the people I thought were full of shit because I'm desperate to be happy. And I realized that the relief from the bondage of self (ok, just little by little, its the sudden shock that hurts) was the most important part. You really won't find too many people in the world more self-centered than I was (or probably still am, even after working on it for awhile).

Sorry so long, I read you a lot (I'm a luuuuuuurker...)
Ann H. | Homepage | 07.12.09 - 10:39 am | #

It sounds like you tore a page from my book, Anna.

When I read it, it hurts so damn bad!
[sic] | Homepage | 07.11.09 - 9:15 am | #