Ashley my friend...I sometimes just have the impression of travelling through parts of my life and finding you already standing on the path ahead of me.

What I would like to do is TALK to you. Find out how you do that. Find out what you see from that vantage point 30 yards beyond where I stand.


Chris Corrigan | Homepage | 06.27.07 - 6:04 pm | #

Dear Chris... I feel so blessed that we have companions with us on this journey, sometimes walking along side us, sometimes in front of us, sometimes behind us, sometimes hovering in the spaces between. Learning together in so many different ways.

I would love to TALK and find out more myself as to 'how I do that.'

big love,
ashley
ashley | Homepage | 06.28.07 - 4:13 pm | #

Hi Ashley, I am exploring similar terrain at the moment. I have been doing a lot of meditation and Byron Katie work this past month and opening up lots of interesting and vulnerable places in myself. Feeling raw and also amazed and full of strength possibility. Like I am dying and being born at the same time - over and over again. I really think that clarity is the key - I can live with an Open Heart much more peacefully and powerfully when I am really clear - it is like a slightly (and crucially) different kind of vulnerability that retains much more life force and curiosity than the combined "amazing moments with leaky, fearful and confused energies mixed in" I have mostly experienced around vulnerability in my life. Open - close - open - close...

Having very closely experienced death and birth in recent years - it struck me very clearly that they share a powerful and connected energy - a sense of power or life force moving. In a way living with an Open Heart feels for me like holding the courage and willingness to constantly die and be born. Without the clarity - it just feels like dying, and the energy feels like it is draining out of the system. With the clarity it feels like the birth is connected, follows quickly, and so the energy stays in the system, feeds it and provides the strength to support the vulnerability.

In my martial arts training I am also playing with these energies of openess and vulnerability in the physical realm. Experimenting with the energy of emotional vulnerability in my responses to physical vulnerability. What if feels like to hold my energy and body solid and open as someone comes flying through the air at me.
Noticing that it is my own sense of groundedness and clarity of thought that makes it possible for me to stay fully present for the experience, and stay open to the experience whether I block or jump out of the way. If I can trust my clarity - I can stay open to it, curious and available to act.

Still much to explore...

Fun to be on this path with you.

Caitlin.
Caitlin Frost | Homepage | 06.30.07 - 9:02 pm | #