i blog cos it keeps me sane. i find writing a huge therapy for me. it prob even does a better job than the anti anxiety pills im taking.
Beerbabe - I can relate to that. (I'm only on medication for my stomach, to stop it bleeding to constantly), but obviously, anything which helps relieve stress is a good things in our modern hyperactive hyperstressful lives.
ohmygod why is your stomach bleeding
Um ... even Doctors can't answer that one. It's just hypersensitivity to a lot of foods. Some are food intolerances, others are food allergies.
The medication I am on is normally for ulcer sufferers. Stress does also play a part in it too. When I get overly stressed out, my stomach produces too much acid, which then eats away the stomach lining.
A lot of the problem started when I was doing 23 and 24 hour days and living off one or two hours sleep. The company kept pretending I was lazy and I was always trying to prove I was a good worker. Problem was, other workers in the company also started to believe the managers propaganda that I never did anything all day ... so I was getting more stress from them hassling me about supposedly not working. Was very stressful.
Eventually I ended up in hospital unconscious and without a pulse from vomiting way too much blood.
When I hadn't turned up for work, they'd thought I had quit. (I wish I had, as it didn't improve much). I'd just driven myself to the hospital (because when I asked my flatmate to drive me there, she ran away!)
I'd been vomitting blood in the shower. That wasn't an unsual occurance, but it was an awful lot of blood that day. About fifteen minutes after arriving at the hospital, I was unconscious in emergency and vomiting blood everywhere.
When I was conscious, I told the sister (Sister Ross - a guy) that I'd almost gone to work. He said to me, 'Mate, if had of gone to work, you wouldn't be here now.'
It was just my good fortune that I'd taken myself to the hospital that I am still alive today.
When I phoned work, my manager told me to be in the next day. They really didn't care that I'd narrowly avoided death. They said I was faking it.
[Now, aren't you glad you asked!] 
hmmm that helped put a lot of things into perspective for me.
Really? In what way?
that at the end of the day, you're not defined by what you do for a living and how far up you climb. i've been going through a quarter life crisis where i keep comparing myself to my uni mates. my dad thinks its ridiculous. he thinks im happier than them. i dunno. but life isn't all about work or money. i'm slowly trying to accept that. but it certainly isn't easy. i've got this streak in me where i wanna prove to everyone who thought i'd never amount to anything - that i would amount to something. it drives me trememdously, so thats good. but on the flip side it makes me restless easily, and not easily satisfied. still, between health and wealth, i'd choose health..... i haven't been healthy of late, my friends have been nagging me to see a specialist. but im skeptical about medication and its benefits and wanna pull through my anxiety attacks without resorting to medication. i've found that sports helps a lot. oh well. i'm going on and on... haha ... sorry...
Beerbabe - Go on and on as much as you like.
Yeah - I've always tried to look after my health. Onyl reason I didn't leave that company in the past, was because I went for interviews, and all the other companies wanted someone to work twelve or more hours a day - sometimes they'd even offer less money.
So I stayed where I was (because I believe it's easier to get a job if you already have one, plus it's better to have a job to go to, rather than spend time unemployed).
Eventually, I left anyway. Health became so bad, it was better to go than stay and die. No job is worth dying for (and I know a few people who died because of the stress of their jobs.)
Anyway, I am hoping my new company will do well enough, that i can have the money and lifestyle I want (as opposed to no life and no money)
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