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Just wandered over to your blog via GayPatriot. You're clearly bright and engaged. But one thing that strikes me about your blog is that you're so...young. (Well, of course you are.)
What specifically led me to this reaction was reading your pieces on being gay and Catholic (something I used to share with you).
Unless I misread, what you are saying is that homosexual activity is as the Church understands it and that it's just your particular pattern of sinfulness. No big deal. The world (and the Church) is/are full of sinners.
Well, that's where you sound young to me. I'm wondering what will happen to you when you fall in love with another man and your sex with him is more than recreation, more than release, more than ecstasy. When it becomes the incarnation of your love for him. And then you will, on your own moral grounds, have to realize that in the very act of loving him with your body, you are committing a grave sin, from which you will need to be absolved by sacra
mental confession in order to participate fully in the Eucharist (be it a solemn ritual of divinity or the all-too-frequent happy-clappy travesty of the last 40 years).
I wonder how long your rather sanguine juggling of these two sides of your soul can last.
I do not say this out of spite or even critique, but with a kind of anxious doubt. I have known that moment, and it is terrible, soul-searingly, life-alteringly terrible.
If you can somehow escape it, more power to you, Dreadnought. But truly, I don't understand how you'll be able to.
If I came to that moment, I would likely choose Christ over a man any day. But it is indeed complicated. Thanks for your comments Essem (SM?), I will attempt to answer them in my next post.
Oooh, this is not a gay issue alone.
Listening closely.
"apparently the author cannot remember Reagan"
*snarfs*
that said, it's a lovely dayto be an american. Even here... 30 years ago, it was utterly unimaginable that a black woman would be chosen for an office *THIS* important.
*beams*
It seems to me that "sex with" does not necessarily follow from (or, indeed, accompany "fall in love with".
And I'm not all that young, either...
[Closing parenthesis after "accompany"]
...Alright, yes, I do mean to be pedantic...
Ha ha! Good point Anon.
I will post on Essem's question this Sunday.
Watch out for it. I'm thinking hard.
Hi, Dreadnought. Thanks for taking my comment seriously. I look forward to your post.
One thing though. If you choose to construe the choice as "Christ or a man", that's not exactly how I saw it, but then...this is your answer, not mine!
A big part of my problem was that when I took the Church's teaching to heart, it meant that my capacity to love another man as a homosexual man was deeply and intrinsically disordered, sinful and wrong. Not in the normal way in which all our loves are wayward, but in a specially noxious way: that in giving myself as fully and as deeply as I knew how --having imbibed quite well the Catholic doctrine of the sacramentality of sex-- I was instead creating a golem. It was not so much a question of Jesus vs. Billy. It was more a question of Catholicism's view of who I was vs my own experience of who I was.
Well, I'll shut up now and check out your post. Good luck to you. One of the things about you that's "young" is your love of life and
your pleasure in its varied --though some skeptics might say its contradictory-- expressions. And that's a Catholic thing, too. I happily admit that. Loving the natural law and leather jock straps and High Mass...well, it's archetypal for a Catholic gay man. I hope you can maintain that pleasure as you move through life.
(This thousand-character limit is a challenge, sort of like blogospheric bondage...)
Blogospheric bondage hey. Hmmm. Hope you enjoy it then SM!
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