Sleep Dirt || Comments
I write about my feelings, my world, and my situations. I write the things I see as well as the things that I don't.
I know what Im trying to say when I type it here, but I can't (nor would I want to) control how it's read or perceived by the people who read it. I appreciate everyone's comments and reactions to what I write because it lets me know how other people see and appreciate the things I see and say. But obviously things have gotten to a place that they didn't need to get to. It wasn't intended, but it's on me regardless.
I'm not really sure what the future holds for this blog right now. A great many things are in flux.
But yesterday while my students were in the school library doing research I spent some time looking at the art books that were there, particularly the surrealists... and I thought I would share some of what I saw.
Thanks, as always for reading, and I am truly sorry for any negative vibes.
-d
I, for one, truly appreciate reading your blog. It is honest, and heartfelt, and eloquent, and it holds a mirror up to the world because of that (it has also introduced me to music i may not have otherwise listened to - liked the wikki aliens by the way - yes. i found it 
- and fuels my hunger for literature). I think, when one looks at life then life is going to look back, and it isn't always going to be pretty or easy or necessarily understood, particularly when one is deep down and dirty living that life and submersed in its drama. i suppose what i mean is those negative vibes aren't quite so negative when seen from a step back, where you can understand that they come from a part of the heart that is raw and wild and just as honest. Or at least they are a part of life that also needs to be seen and acknowledged and hopefully understood, because it exists... I really feel for you and your wife and everything that you are going through at the moment, particularly because it is so obvious how much you loved each other... I'm sorry, and I hope that time will allow you both to share something of what you had before, whatever form that might take - when hearts are not so raw and memories are longer. I also hope that whatever the future holds for this blog, you will always find inspiration and continue writing. It is a beautiful way to travel and communicate the inner and outer worlds and you are very talented. And if you ever get to Europe go to Figueres in Spain to the Dali museum - he really is fluid in the language of dreams . . . there is a little painting of his that looks like nothing but nothing until you see it from through a bottle across the room and then it turns into an exquisitely intricate landscape - genius! Sorry this is so long. Good luck and best wishes to you and your family, past present and future, and drop in any time... i'm not really writing much at the moment in virtual space - but, well, anyhow . . .
*understand and safely see
maybe that is why the metaphysical is biologically (?) safer, though the physical can be so delicious
I divert into tangents. crossroads synapses of the mind . . . Thinking on two dancer/choreographers - Pina Bausch, and William Forsythe - one's works grew outward from the mind and the other's from the centre of the body, emotiona,l and, physical
content informing form form creating content
. . .
essays
I'm going to carry on with my composition in physical space now
when i was a teenager, i went through this phase of constant roller-coaster-itis. my life, though it was my choosing, was never the same from day to the next and could be viewed as turmoil to some. even dangerous, hurtful, sad and angry. it was during that time, i went to the dali museum for the first time. i had always loved him but seeing his pieces, live and in complete focus, i found a reflection of pieces of my own life. i found a tranquility in that space, looking at the directed confusion and jumbled thoughts and somehow found a strength in them.
ever since then, dali has been a mainstay in my life, as his work is found all over my house, in various forms. somehow he was always able to make sense of the out of control.
Really, all of this is giving me the chickenspots allover..
It's hard for me to say everything i wanna say but lets say that i agree with the comment of "shewhoshouldmindherownbusiness".
I think ,no, i KNOw you understand.
Even if you won't keep this blog for sharing with "us",your friends who read your blog,is that we won't loose eighother out of sight.
Even though we haven't been in touch as much as before,even today,you still touch my heart with your friendly words and even today i till apprisiate that dearly.
I don't know if it still means anything to you but in my heart you will be allways with me,and something else,i'm allways here for you,even though we are thousends of miles apart.
Don't hesitate to call me or visit me when you feel like going out for a couple of days.
But most important,think of the little guy and yourself first.
You are a wonderful person and a great daddy.
I wish you all the best and luck and love in the world Daniel..
You will be happy. Just live day by day.
There are still miracles ya kno
There is so much to give in live.
Never give up. Be strong and show the world you are here for a reason.
I could write a book about reasons for you to be here on earth. (that's positive)
Don't punish yourself too much for what happened.
Think about what else you've got left to live for.
Writing is good for you.
I hope one day i can read your book(S).
You are smart, you are intelligent, you are sweet. And you know what?
EVERYONE has got a history.
Who gives a f.ck? heh..
Gawd..i think i've said enough for today..
To give this story an end:
I love you my friend
x Dani
I remember reading something somewhere (THBBB?) about the volumes of sprial notebooks and being lefthanded and smearing the words. Your words in my wedding guestbook are smeary too, but the sentiment still shows through the blur. Same way here.
It seems to me that you have always created a space for yourself like this and I hope that you will create a new one here or elsewhere.
THBBM, indeed.
Thankfully, that's not the sum total of all the moments.
To the good times that have been, the good times to come, and to grabbin' a-hold of somethin' and getting through the in-between.
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