autobiology
Thank you for sharing this Siona. I am grateful you did.
A difficult message to remember when you are someone that is hard on themselves. I wish I could apply it always. But I still have weak moments.
I hope you can offer this testimony to many others, in person when possible.
Merci Siona!
Best,
It took me hitting bottom with my addiction to let go of all my pretenses.
And of course ego continues to resurface on a regular basis, so it doesn't seem to last. Seems like it'll always be around to try and appear more than it is.
Yes, I too was successful in business, once a very long time ago. And also had minor success in another career. But these days are unlike any I've ever experienced. Feels like we're in the evolutionary soup, that place between the caterpillar & the butterfly. Whew!
Fantastic writing Siona; thanks...
Very nicely put. I appreciate your honesty and the simplicity with which you share your experience. I'll keep stopping by to see what else you have to say.
Thanks,
Bob
Great.
This is actually something that I had been dealing with recently. Not in the way that I doubt my self worth, but for no reason at all I seem to get this feeling like everybody is seeing through me and it is forcing me(at times) to think myself unhappy.
It's always comforting to know others share your experience.
Siona: I enjoy reading the summary you send on the zaadz site from time to time. Even though I've been a member for a while, I've not figured out what to put on my profile, how to do it or whether it is all that necessary right now in any event. My friend Jane from Labrador (who I think you know) spends so much time on the site, I'm fearful I too will get that attached, and I simply cannot afford that time right now.
I find it interesting to read just now that you suffered from an addictive past. This year I've been finding people who are recovering from their addictions and (as a by product?) at the same time are recognizing that we are going through a big scientific/spiritual revolution.
I'm one of them. At the age of 15 I found booze and 35 years later, having been found splayed out in front of my million dollar home; unconscious from a head wound caused by being thrown out of a car, nearly run over by a neighbour and visible to my young children (once again) I finally hit bottom and Thank God, got sober. So now I'm 50 but I feel like i'm back at 15 to start again. And what a lovely second time round.
Funny creatures us addicts. Powerful, strong, opinionated, and yet so in need of help. I send you big blessings Siona.
See, I knew it was worth coming over to read here. I don't know when or how I discovered it, but I feel the same. If I couldn't do anything but be, that would make me just as important as if I could do all those external trappings of success things.
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