document.write("<script language=\"javascript1.2\" type=\"text/javascript\">function emo_pop() {window.open('http://www.haloscan.com/commenthelp.php','Help','width=200,height=320,resizable=yes,scrollbars=yes');}</script><table width=\"97%\" align=\"center\" cellpadding=\"0\" cellspacing=\"0\" border=\"0\" class=\"MainTable\">  <tr>    <td>    <div align=\"center\"><img src=\"http://i211.photobucket.com/albums/bb78/TajCee/CommentsBanner.jpg\"><p><i>~Everybody should believe in something.  I believe I'll have another coffee.~</i></p>    </div>    </td>  </tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34107\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=80783ca0ff55e256ce644fd39da5d94d&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />I never know quite the right words to say under \"traditional\" loss circumstances, so this one is even tougher. <br><br>I have an inkling that you need your friends and family to just stand by you and even in silence, support you, and so that's the way I'm going with it. My hope for you is that you find some peace. xoxo  Many heartfelt hugs to you.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Melisa | <a href=\"http://thesuburbanscrawl.blogspot.com\" title=\"http://thesuburbanscrawl.blogspot.com\">Homepage</a> | 09.22.08 - 10:44 pm | <a href=\"#34107\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34110\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=b82924268e0462f279ad8923516c570d&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />Stunningly written-- <b>these emotions like lightbulb-thin glass shards wrapped in the most protective packaging</b>--and deeply felt. <br><br>You already know my heart is with you in all ways.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           HouseofJules | <a href=\"http://bigpikchur.blogspot.com\" title=\"http://bigpikchur.blogspot.com\">Homepage</a> | 09.23.08 - 12:17 am | <a href=\"#34110\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34112\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=f4eb744a7038316fe5a0ce7740025b0e&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" /><b>Melisa</b>: Thank you. If only I had that family support you speak of. But friends more than make up for it! <br><br><b>Jules</b>: I do know and, as you already know, I thank you from the deepest recesses of my heart.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Taj | <a href=\"http://www.tajwanders.blogspot.com\" title=\"http://www.tajwanders.blogspot.com\">Homepage</a> | 09.23.08 - 5:02 am | <a href=\"#34112\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34113\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=c916843a86dd3a8f1e3a4d60842fdec5&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />It's always difficult when it comes to \"loss\" and I don't know anything about the circumstances but what you wrote was so beautiful it almost reduced me to tears.<br><br>It really touched me. Being in work I can't elaborate but I'd like to send you a hug across the pond.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Kat | <a href=\"http://inyourfacesuckers.blogspot.com\" title=\"http://inyourfacesuckers.blogspot.com\">Homepage</a> | 09.23.08 - 6:18 am | <a href=\"#34113\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34114\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=f33c7cf421cb6af4e94b08850a4dd003&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />I'll be keeping you in my thoughts today - when we lose people with whom we have relationships that are not \"easy\",  the pain we feel at their loss is still just as deep. <br><br>Your post is beautiful - I'm so glad you found that love at the end of it all.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Astrogirl426@gmail.com | <a href=\"http://astrogirl426.blogspot.com\" title=\"http://astrogirl426.blogspot.com\">Homepage</a> | 09.23.08 - 8:07 am | <a href=\"#34114\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34115\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=2b8e6c322b4bd66faea495c45848d213&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />again you wrote so beautifully I had tears in my eyes. Grief and loss - sigh how to deal- you're doing well and no one handles it the same- you are in our thoughts and prayers.  Glad to see you back I was missin you! ((HUGS))<br /><span class=\"byline\">           M.O.M | <a href=\"http://mistressreddragonsangel.blogspot.com/\" title=\"http://mistressreddragonsangel.blogspot.com/\">Homepage</a> | 09.23.08 - 9:03 am | <a href=\"#34115\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34119\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=5e709e952bc1981de30f0dd2bd628d61&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />This gave me goosebumps. It was so eloquently written, I could feel your pain. I'm sorry for your loss.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           April | <a href=\"http://smitty76.blogspot.com/\" title=\"http://smitty76.blogspot.com/\">Homepage</a> | 09.23.08 - 11:01 am | <a href=\"#34119\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34124\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=7ab417ce4cbc23ea4690ee49033e09cd&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />Wow - just WOW!<br><br>Your words brought tears to my eyes.  <b>STUNNINGLY</b> (is that even a word?) written!<br><br>I'm glad that you've made sense out of the conflicting emotions though  girl - recognizing and understanding them is half of the battle.<br><br>Hang in there.  I'm here if you need me.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Dawn | <a href=\"http://retardedrugrat.wordpress.com\" title=\"http://retardedrugrat.wordpress.com\">Homepage</a> | 09.23.08 - 2:33 pm | <a href=\"#34124\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34130\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=e64f432c566536cb6dfaefaee6e51501&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />many many hugs for you, taj. <br><br>your in my thoughts.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           andie | <a href=\"http://sweetsouthernspirited.blogspot.com\" title=\"http://sweetsouthernspirited.blogspot.com\">Homepage</a> | 09.23.08 - 8:59 pm | <a href=\"#34130\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34141\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=60635e00abd6017a3333f64b90cf5987&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />My Thoughts are with you as you travel down this rough patch in the road. <br>I haven't spoken to my mother in almost 5 years now... and have often wondered how i will feel... or if i will feel... when the time is hers. But even through every thing... they still are our mothers...<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Keri | <a href=\"http://stripeycatproduction.blogspot.com/\" title=\"http://stripeycatproduction.blogspot.com/\">Homepage</a> | 09.24.08 - 7:10 am | <a href=\"#34141\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34190\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=f4eb744a7038316fe5a0ce7740025b0e&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" /><b>Kat</b>: Thank you Kat and your hug is much appreciated.<br><br><b>Astrogirl426</b>: I am glad I found it as well. I am able to grieve fully without letting the past control the person I am today.<br><br><b>M.o.M.</b>: Thank you. I missed you as well. Still a bit busy but hope to be around here regularly soon.<br><br><b>April</b>: Thank you. I let my heart guide me on this one.<br><br><b>Dawn</b>: Stunningly is in fact a word! And I thank you for describing this post as such. <br>Now if we could just manage to be on IM at the same time....<img src=\"http://www.haloscan.com/images/smileys/clin_oeil.gif\" border=\"0\" alt=\"\" width=\"15\" height=\"15\" /><br><br><b>Andie</b>: Thank you much.<br><br><b>Keri</b>: Yes, even through everything. I used to scoff when people said that. But now I know it to be true.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Taj | <a href=\"http://www.tajwanders.blogspot.com\" title=\"http://www.tajwanders.blogspot.com\">Homepage</a> | 09.25.08 - 6:48 pm | <a href=\"#34190\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"34302\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=7dc5677e32b0a12afd15c98a115566ba&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />Taj,<br><br>This is a beautifully written tribute. I am so sorry for your loss, for your grief, for your sadness.<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Anastasia Beaverhausen | 09.29.08 - 7:52 pm | <a href=\"#34302\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"35229\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=fef77d31fd136ce08a6fc28f05d2d7e5&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />Thank you for this. It is beautifully written from you heart.<br><br>My thoughts are with you!<br /><span class=\"byline\">           Kristin | <a href=\"http://lovelydisturbance.blogspot.com\" title=\"http://lovelydisturbance.blogspot.com\">Homepage</a> | 10.26.08 - 9:56 pm | <a href=\"#35229\" title=\"Link to this comment\">#</a></span></p><hr /></td></tr><tr><td class=\"MessageCell\">    <a name=\"35984\"></a>        <p><img src=\"http://www.gravatar.com/avatar.php?gravatar_id=8805b0df314ea0d169b5b0e9aa46bede&amp;default=http%3A%2F%2Fi211.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fbb78%2FTajCee%2FA2Star-2.gif&amp;rating=R&amp;size=80\" alt=\"Gravatar\" title=\"Gravatar\" style=\"padding: 1px; margin: 2px; float: right;\" class=\"gravatar\" />I am happy for you and sad for you. I think you can understand why here in a second. <br><br>I have not forgiven my mother. Therefore I do not grieve for her or miss her at all. Her death is and was an emotionally painless event. <br><br>Being a man, I like it that way. <br><br>If you have forgiven her, now you can miss her. 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